Andrea O. Freeman

I wonder on most days if I have been a good enough example of the love and light of Christ in this world. I confess, some days my inner voice grunts and pipes up, “What kind of question is that?! Of course you have! Who on earth has ever made you feel anything less?” Hm. Isn’t that the question? Who on this earth has made me feel as if I have to ask that question and provide a satisfactory answer? Truth? I am hardest on myself of anyone. I think a lot of people are, but most aren’t willing to admit it. I see how busy, well connected and engrossed in life so many people are-and I remember a time when I felt somehow I had to keep up with that. What I learned to accept as my own and “good enough” over time, was just that-my own. My justification for me was and has always been Christ-but that didn't come naturally until later in life. To compare myself or feel pressure to measure up to anyone else in this life, is not at all what He intends for me. Here is where I find my

Search me, God, and know my heart; (Psalm 139:23 NIV) I was impressed in my heart today by my devotional study-to know our God, and to be fully known by Him. I was asked to look back at the moment in the Garden after Adam and Eve sinned. They hid from God. When the time came, God searched for them, called out to them. But here is the line from my devotional that struck me: God didn’t ask what they had done , He wanted to know where they were ? I can recall a very difficult season in my life, sometime between my freshman and sophomore years of college. I was not happy and I was contemplating whether or not to even continue my studies, or perhaps transfer. I was paired with an Advisor who did little more than schedule my classes and took very little personal interest in me, and I was finding immense dissatisfaction with some of my courses and the professor I was matched with for my group vocal studies was over the top and very demanding. As a musician, I was disappointed