The world behind me, the Cross before me

I am ready to go, just a few things to throw in the suitcase in the morning and Barbados here I come! God is so good, and His provisions is amazing. I never cease to be amazed by His abundant provision for me. I am so thankful, so humbled by the outpouring of prayer and financial support that has enabled me to go on this mission trip. As I have gotten closer to the trip, watching the weeks pass from the calendar, I am antsy. It is what I'd like to call 'spiritual antsy' cause I have this buzzing inside me, a feeling like I can't sit still and just need to go! God has given me the opportunity to go and serve, share the love of Jesus with the people of Barbados. I am so honored, humbled and inspired to be His servant. For two weeks, I will leave behind me the world as I know it, my comfort zone and open myself up to be used completely and filled to overflowing by God. Matthew 28 is our motto, our reason for being on this earth in these turbulent times. God desires for all people to come to know Him, to walk with Him and to worship Him. I have a responsibility as a Christ follower to tell of His love, to be an example of Jesus for those who need Him so desperately. I can't wait to see what God is going to do the next two weeks.

Where He leads me I will follow

I have so many thoughts in my head today as I am looking forward to departure to Barbados on Saturday. I have a lot of packing to do, but I am ready and I have everything I need. I was just thinking this morning that the women's study we have been doing is so applicable to this time in my life. We are learning about women Paul commended in the New Testament church. All of these women lived lives of great risk, bold faith and sacrifice for the sake of the cross. It has come full circle for me as I approach this mission trip and reflect upon their example to me. I am going because God called me and made a way, because there is a need and I have chosen to be available to Him for His use, because God is not done with His people...we must go and share the gospel! Matthew 28 is our motto, our life's purpose on this earth to look beyond ourselves and our comfortable lives to be completely used by God for a higher purpose. I don't care what I accumulate in this life in terms of the world's measure of success, but that I would be wealthy in terms of something of eternal value. I know that this experience will bring me to a much deeper, stronger devotion to my Lord, and I know that He will not be done with me after this trip ends. I hope and pray that this experience brings me to a greater understanding of God's greater purpose for me. I am a child of God, a ready and willing servant who desires to spend time with Him, to seek out opportunities daily to share His precious love and the gift of Jesus with others. As He leads, I will follow His calling upon my life. I am so thankful, so humbled, so blessed to be part of something so amazing and life changing.

Today is the day, You have made! I will rejoice and be glad in it!

My new fave song is Lincoln Brewster's Today is the Day on his newest project. I have listened to it on the way home from work every day this week and it is such a great release! The past few weeks have been particularly stressful for me, so it is a welcome stress reliever to turn up the volume in my car and sing with Lincoln. There are so many days I don't even feel like getting out of bed, much less uttering these words. I know I have so much to be thankful for, so why is that? The stresses and worries of this life at times can weigh on me like the weights in the gym. It is interesting to visualize myself, lifting the weights, strengthening my muscles, to the point of shaking fatigue, how much further can I go on....there is only so much more I can handle! What if we approached life this way? A challenge comes your way and immediately we question, "How can this happen? Lord, I cannot handle this right now!!" Somehow I sense Him saying, "Work it out, you can do it, hang in there!" He is our trainer, we are the athletes, and He is there beside us coaxing us on toward our goal. When we reach the point of exhaustion He takes us in His arms, pats us on the back and we can hear Him say, "Well done!" Don't you wish your trainer could be so supportive? It kind of puts it in perspective, because I know my limits, but God knows them too and He is going to allow stuff to happen to me because He knows it is for my good. Sometimes I may not see the other side of that struggle for awhile, and I may not ever know the full purpose until I stand before Him one day...but, I can trust He has His reasons and He knows what is best.
Romans 8:28 And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them.

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