I am still not used to the time change here. We are now Eastern time instead of Central time, so it gets dark earlier and it is dark much later in the morning. Winter is more harsh in Indiana than anywhere we have lived. It isn't much different from Missouri or Tennessee, but it is much colder, and being in a small town the pace is that much slower. Saturdays are meant for being lazy, sleeping late and enjoying time with the family. My job makes that challenging since I have to work on the weekends. I would much rather be home enjoying time with my family. I wonder how many other people share my "pain"? Don't get me wrong, it is a good job and I like it but it is by no means a "dream" job. Perhaps once again God is prompting me to consider what else I could be doing with my life professionally to find a greater sense of fulfillment. I have considered going back to school, but the timing would not be right for that now. I know God hears my heart, and I know I need to pray and research what more I could be doing with my life. I have never been the type that would be content to do the same thing for twenty or thirty years of my life. I guess I haven't found that yet. But I don't ever want to be content. It is the same way with God. He doesn't want us to be content in our walk with him, in how we approach this life and live in this world. We shouldn't blend in, we should stick out. We need to be discontent, uncomfortable, seeking without ceasing what more we could be doing to grow and thrive as Christ followers. In my quiet time today I was reminded once again that God hears me, and He will answer me. Psalm 6 is a promise that He will protect, restore, provide and care for me. I am thankful for that and I know it is enough to know He has a plan. In His time and when the timing is right, He will reveal it to me. I will continue to seek, study, pray and commune with the Lord to know where my path will lead.
Joy and Light
Early Tuesday morning January 2, 2024, I got a call that my Mom was slipping away and the family should come. We knew she was not doing well these past couple of weeks as she had developed pneumonia and covid, and she was struggling just to manage breathing. When I arrived, the nurse brought me in to Mom's bedside, and quietly stepped out to give me some time alone with her before my Dad and my brother arrived. I cried like I have never cried before in my life, and went to my knees beside her, resting my hand on her arm. I have no words to describe what it felt like in that moment, the finality and the reality of it. My brain understood she was gone, no longer there. But my heart, regardless of how far gone Mom had been for years now..... my heart was suddenly flooded with the feelings, the sounds, the memories of her across my entire life, rushing through my head in that moment all at once. It felt like time kind of stopped, s...
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