I can't believe how long it has been since my last blog entry. Since I last wrote, I have been to Missouri and back. My parents flew me back last weekend to spend some last moments with my grandmother as she settled at home. We knew she only had a few days to live once they discharged her from the hospital and the doctors had made their final diagnosis. Pancreatic cancer is one of the, if not THE most fatal type of cancer. By the time her bloodwork came back her liver was taken over by it. Over the weekend we watched her grow weaker but somehow she gathered the strength to visit with each of us about some of our favorite memories together over the years. I am thankful for the time we had, and will cherish my memories with her for many years. She went home to be with the Lord Tuesday morning. I am amazed and at peace to know she is with the Father now. It must be wonderful, so incredible to spend all of eternity in His presence. We can only imagine, but the reality of it is hers now. We will gather with family next week for a memorial service in her honor Friday, May 9. Although the pain and grief of her loss will be with me from time to time, the peace of knowing she is with the Lord is so much stronger.
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