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Lord, Be....because I cannot

So many reasons today to get bogged down by my weakness, my inability, my inadequacy. I am about 2 1/2 weeks from my due date so my physical being is weary, worn out, feeling a great deal of fatigue. My mind is racing with all there is to do, not just for the baby, but for Ryan. Mid February, and he hasn't had a bite yet. Many, many applications and contacts and no sign of progress yet on the job front. End of March is approaching quickly it seems, which leaves us to wonder what is next for him? My heart aches for answers to the hurts and frustrations I still wrestle with daily. It comes in waves. Just when I seem to be at the point of no return, I can reach for my Father in heaven and cry out to Him, "I cannot take another moment of this Lord! Help me!" Somehow, He does it. Just for me. There are a million other things going on today that probably are of greater concern than what I am enduring, and yet, He cares for me and He loves me so deeply. The day to …
I really cannot believe how long it has been since my last post. It is something I kept meaning to do, then the holidays arrived, I got so busy with all we had going on that it just didn't happen. So, here we are. What's the latest? Where to begin.
First, I am expecting sweet baby #4, Chloe Grace, March 5 so about 3 1/2 weeks to go. Whew. And I mean that literally. I am so done with being pregnant and very happy to shout from the mountain top that this is the last time I am doing this. My body cannot take it again. I hit age 39 in January so I believe my body has really been telling me just how old it is getting during the course of this pregnancy. I love my babies, and all in all I have had fairly good experiences but it is time to put a bow on this portion of my life and say done. That said, I have taken more moments this time around to truly appreciate that this is it. I am more thankful today for the gift of life than I was when I was pregnant with my first chil…